how is it possible to doubt one's ability to give
another happiness?
that's what i'm feeling right now. this instance.
unsettled. disarray thoughts.
what if i cant give C the happiness he deserves?
what if C starts to regret this path?
the "what if"s are such a pain in the ass.

just cant doubt myself anymore.
doubting myself would just make C feel more uneasy.
he's able to detect the slightest anguish i feel.
its not that i dont wanna tell him
the words just get stuck each time i try to make it come out.
but telling him how i feel, what i think
always seem to make things better. a lot better.
puts my heart, soul and mind on relax mode.
back to the normal threshold.

maybe he's right. maybe i'm just a girl afterall.
unlike guys, i dont have a huge ego or pride
to fuel my confidence and prove that
i'm better than the rest of the homosapien species.
i'm only human, to err is human.

love is believing that you'll be able to bring out the best in Him
and Him bringing out the best in you.
love is knowing what the other feels without spoken words.
C never fails to see right through me.
i dont know how to hide my thoughts/feelings for him
and i never want to do so. (:
they say that eyes are like open windows to see a person's
heart and soul. never doubt that.


/i got a confession to make, i'm your fool.